Wednesday, March 31, 2010

刚刚跟你吵了一顿架,心情不是很好,想到屋外去走走,可是有点懒洋洋的,也许是身体不太舒服,也许是真的很懒惰,所以一直想给自己找个借口去走走。。

想了好久,哦对了!电话卡的钱快用光了,不如去买电话卡吧,不然晚上怎么能够打给你呢?每天晚上的一通电话,似乎已经成为一种习惯了。。

找到了一个像样的借口,终于舍得出门了。。买了卡后,还不舍得回家,就多走了一下,欣赏一下外边的风景吧。。

天气很冷,除了风大之外最近也一直在下雨。。使得非常耐寒的我一直在发抖,觉得很奇怪的同时,也忘了我的病还没有痊愈。。

仔细看了一下沿途的风景。。

大多数人,都是在匆匆忙忙的走路,应该是赶着回家吃饭吧。

有情侣在路边抱着,洋溢着幸福的笑容,这一刻,他们应该都很开心吧,衷心祝福他们能够一直这么开心。。

妈妈牵着两个小孩子过马路,突然一个小孩子绊倒了!看得我差点冲过去把他扶起来,幸好迎面而来的车放慢了速度。。

地上,好多落叶。才赫然发现树上的树已经开始枯黄了,提醒了我秋天的来临。虽然很多棵树还很茂密,但是已经感觉到一丝丝萧瑟的气息了。但愿萧瑟的是气候而不是心情。。

当我们每天加快步伐去迎接生活中的每一个挑战时,我们已经多久没有这样的去欣赏走过的每一个风景了?

当我们一直在紧紧抓着自己的观点不放时,已经有多久没有感受到那海阔天空的世界了?

当我们每天沉迷于电脑里的一切时,已经有多久没有感受到那最自然最原始的感动了?

短短十多分钟的一个散步,我感受到了。

想你,真的很想你。。

Monday, March 29, 2010

I am really like @$$#^%%&*$@$#$^%&*^&*^$%$%#$#$#$

I just feel like shouting now!!!!!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Shingles

身体最近有些不舒服,虽然没有到处去跟人家说,但是比较亲近我的人都知道,上个礼拜有些时候我有些头痛,右手边肌肉觉得酸痛。但以为只是疲倦,休息一下就会好了。

没想到几天前,身上突然长了很多粒红点,右手边也相当痛。问了一下老爸,他只能从我形容的样子认为是细菌感染,叫我吃antibiotic和涂antibiotic oilment看看。

刚才跟朋友出去喝杯饮料,恰巧大医生Cheng Hiang Lee在场,也跟他提起了一下我的手,也顺便到他家去给他看看。没想到他一看就"shit"了一声,差点把我吓死。原来是shingles,也就是华人说的生蛇。

爸爸刚才打给我,告诉我说应该是shingles,我才告诉他说我已经给朋友看过了,明天该去看医生了。

唉。。该多休息点了。幸好还有一个星期就是mid-sem break了。

Friday, March 26, 2010

Be true

I understand that sometimes people want to sound more convincing.. People like to say things that catch others' attention so that they can talk to others or convince others easily..

But by keep on exaggerating the fact or keep putting words into people's mouth is just not a good way of doing so. Sometimes we would like to be motivational, we would like to say something big so that it is more "exciting" and people will believe in us, but we have to be honest to ourselves as well.

Is it really the truth? Is that what others think? Is it really what happened? Is that the truth that I can use to convince people? No matter how good is your intention, doing it the wrong way is just wrong.

Be true to yourself, be true to the truth before you try to be motivational. =)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

STRESSED

It is only week 4 and I am feeling very stress right now.. Can't believe the truth that I have so many things to do..

Endless readings, endless assignments, and endless tests... and endless emails to write and read... I can only hope that this semester finish quickly...

Just do one thing at a time.. I know I can do it!

Friday, March 19, 2010

曾经太年轻

窗外风铃一直不安静
风在摇晃不安的宿命
我聆听
你回忆经过的声音

开始旅行寂寞很清醒
我在靠近过去的边境
有些
恋人只是路过时的风景

曾经太过年轻却绝对真心
我给的爱始终任性
不懂花开只一次的爱情

曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还相信

直到如今你说爱的那封信
我一直都收藏着
折叠用心
让誓言干净

曾经太过年轻
在人海飘零
那些关于我的事情
总有你紧紧跟随的身影

曾经太过年轻
泪纯真透明
你的坚定
我仍然还相信

Heard this song recently.. Love it.
Don't do things that you will regret.. Just because of your emotions or you "feel like it"
There are a lot of things.. That once you miss it, you won't get it back anymore.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

After a nap...

Skipped CDT today.. Felt very guilty for skipping it, because Dhamma Talk is the activity I enjoyed most and I have once promised myself that I will attend all talks this semester..

But just now after taking graduation photos with Canh, while I walk back home with Hans and Kai Yi, my mind tells me not to attend the talk today, because I have to finish my literature review tonight and I know that I am very tired...

Reached home, finish up my sushi that I bought from Mathews Arcade, I fall asleep...

Initially I set the alarm clock at 8, but I just can't seem to get up. Times and times the alarm clock rings... Again and again I delay.. Finally I woke up at 9.. I feel like as if my body is falling apart.. Haven't been feeling so tired for a long while.. I guess I really need a break, although it's only the end of week 3..

Having said so, I can't seem to find a time that I can really take a break, until the end of semester. I will try my best to rest whenever I could, and do my best whenever I needed to...

I need HOLIDAYS!! =p

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

人生

最近好像发生了很多事情,不只是我,身边的人也一样。

人的一生,就是这样,不断地起起落落。。很多事情看似控制得到,却偏偏身不由己。。

还好,我觉得我算是很幸福了。。至少我的烦恼也算是“幸福的烦恼”,没有其他人那么痛苦。

接下来,真的该打起精神来加油了!是时候施展我的宏图大计了

有起有落,这才是人生!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Count Down

I am counting down...

Can't wait for it.. =D

Thursday, March 11, 2010

突破

很多时候,因为习惯,因为喜欢,我们一直在重复地犯着一样的错误。

突破,不就是跳脱那个圈圈的意思吗?

我觉得,我已经做好那个要突破的准备。

也许明天,你看到的会是一个不一样的祥缘。

Saturday, March 6, 2010

发泄

忙碌的一周,终于要过完了。

很难得有一天可以歇息。虽然还是有很多东西要做,需要准备下星期上课所有的资料、笔记等,还有下星期的会议也有非常多东西要准备,但是可以稍微轻松一天,我已经觉得很满足了。

今晚,晚餐只随便吃了一点面包。人家问我为什么没吃多些,我的答案是“懒惰”。也许只是表面上的原因而已,其实我已经累坏了,一点胃口都没有。

今天的O-picnic... 还算是可以吧。只是有时候真的很不明白,为什么有些人始终都搞不懂自己的本分?我不期望大家能做些什么,我只希望最基本的“本分”可以守好,我就谢天谢地了。

不想不停地投诉了。可以的话,真的很想到华藏寺去,享受那份宁静的感觉,把这边烦人的事情给抛掉。

但,逃避无法解决问题,这我明白。。

真的只想要找双耳朵。可是,好像找不到。。

算了,无论结果会是怎样,今年将会是我成长最多的一年。我一直都在坚持地相信着。。

睡觉去也!

Friday, March 5, 2010

Strong

I need to be stronger.

Not physically but mentally..

I know that I can't do everything by myself, but I am really glad that I have a group of dedicated excos.

Be your own boss, Ian!