古龙在《多情剑客无情剑》的结局里写着：
“他不但佩服李寻欢，也很感激，因为一个人能使自己永保笑容，固然已很不容易，若还能让别人笑，才真正伟大！
“画蛇添足”不但是多余的，而且是可笑。
但世上太多烦恼，岂非就因为笑得太少？
笑，就像是香水，不但能令自己芬芳，也能令别人快乐。
你若能令别人笑一笑，纵然做做愚蠢的事又何妨？”
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
再见，悉尼
再过几个小时就要回家去了！
在这几天，过去四年的点点滴滴都突然间涌入那原本已经够忙的脑袋里。
也许，它是想为我四年的大学生涯做个完美的句点吧。
这五味杂陈的感觉是非常难以形容的。
在这人生的交叉路口，又是考验人的时候。
原佛法能把我带到一个平静的地方。
=)
悉尼，明年再见！
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
因为单身的缘故
因为单身的缘故，日子过得比较素
刚开始有点难度，现在比较知道怎么对付。
偶尔我难受的时候就走近南面的窗户
看看世界给我是晴朗还是雾
喜欢独处并不等于蓄意陷溺在孤独
我相信当无其他救赎人能格外的清楚
如此这般的活着并不意味我再也不贪图
我只是比你忍得住，我忍得住
世界是一堂布景，人生是一条路
我既不是主角也无能决定起伏
至少我能决定怎么进、怎么出
先彻底抽离，再全部投入
Monday, December 5, 2011
For Good?
不知道为什么，总有一种感觉好像这一次回槟城，就不会回来悉尼了。
也许是找不到一个理由再继续待在这里了吧。
刚刚为玮莹道别，真的好像有种我也将要回去，以后再也不回来的感觉。
如果我不是慧命社的理事，我真的会认真考虑不回来了。
一年后再看吧。
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
給朋友
要跟一個人在一起，應該要多了解那個人，才會知道是不是合適的。
很多時候單凴“喜歡”，很容易一頭就栽進去。
結果，往往都是所謂的“因了解而分離”。
這是大多數人都會有的經歷。
大聲的宣洩你的悲傷吧！
我想，會難過是因爲曾經放進了一些心思吧。
我知道你會好好的，而他也會好好的過！
Friday, November 18, 2011
己见
蛮不讲理的人，并不可怕。
那是因为你已经知道他是蛮不讲理的，一笑置之，就没事了。
而且，这种人也不值得你去在乎。
最可怕的人，是得理不饶人的人。
仗着自己有些道理，坚持己见，仿佛全世界只有他才是对的。
期盼什么事情都是“公平”的，当然会痛苦！
什么是“公平”？我们凡夫只能有限的，依眼前看到的来判断，当然很多东西都不公平。
放下己见吧。否则事事都会看不顺眼的。那些不切实际的期盼只能带来痛苦，而不是快乐。
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Final thesis interview
两个月前的Practice thesis interview，我被两位其他的Panel members轰炸了一个小时的问题。
很多时候都是哑口无言，看着Mike求救。
哇那种无助一想到现在还是会觉得不舒服！
下个星期二的thesis final interview，我要让自己以最自信的姿态去面对所有的问题！
不管结果如何，不管能不能拿得到first class，至少我都尽了力了。
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Finishing Line 1
Thesis submission in 10 days time.
The funny thing is ppl in our lab group always tell me that this is a stressful time, so it's ok to be stressful. Hahaha.
There might be some wisdom in it!
Reaching the finishing line soon!! Can't wait!
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Microbiology Sound Bites
I have made a very good decision to stay and attend the weekly Microbiology Sound Bites.
Thanks Adrian Lee, you are an inspiration.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
2 months to go
"Ian, if there's a time in your life where you have to work for 11 hours a day, it's from now until the submission of your thesis."
"Don't worry about your 'life' now, just focus on what you are doing, scientists are supposed to be a bit crazy."
"You will get so much out of it."
-- Mike Manefield to Ian Ch'ng
2.20pm, 24/8/11
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
给自己的歌
想得却不可得，你奈人生何？
该舍的舍不得，只顾着跟往事瞎扯。
等你发现时间是贼了，它早已偷光你的选择。
爱恋不过是一场高烧，思念是紧跟着的好不了的咳。
是空空荡荡，却嗡嗡作响，
是谁在你心里放冷枪？
她的爱在心里埋葬了、抹平了、几年了仍有余威。
--李宗盛
难怪李大师一出手就获得了金曲奖最佳作词、作曲、最佳歌曲三个大奖。
他真的太厉害了。
Friday, August 19, 2011
被遗忘的
他的喘息終於遠去了
這夜寒分了 心是涼的
我的孤獨已經到站了
受夠的曲折 不再繞了
有那麼多的憂傷圍繞著
疲憊的雙眼 還凝望著
當人被失落寂寞促擁著
這樣的片刻 只想唱歌
愛像風中的風箏 有翱翔的旅程
而被遺忘的是 那些放開手的人
殘忍或不殘忍 也不许誰難以割捨
而被遺忘的是 那些放開手的人
被遺忘的是 放開手的人
有那麼多的憂傷圍繞著
疲憊的雙眼 還凝望著
這失落猶然美麗的時刻
整夜緊閉著雙唇 我只想唱歌
而被遺忘的是 我這放開手的人
不會殘忍 也不會難以割捨
而被遺忘的是 我這放開手的人
繞過山又飄過河 緩緩的 淡淡的
被遺忘的是 放開手的人
該遺忘的是 你讚美過的 單純
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
When experiment fails....
All the hard work are thrown into the sea.
Yesterday, I reached uni at 6.10am. Worked all the way until 6.15pm, went to the meditation workshop led by Chien Hoong, then came back to the lab at 10pm. After finished preparing the culture and done first round of sampling, it was already 12.45am.
Went home, slept for 5 hours, then reached uni again at 7.30am to continue my experiment. Everything was going alright until I just found out that my cells are not growing AT ALL.
T.T
No wonder stress level is increasing exponentially. Have to start my experiment all over again.
生人勿扰。
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
Bad Luck
Ok, I got the nastiest professor as my thesis assessment panel. Wish me luck.
Just told Hazlin about it and she gave me a SHOCKED face.
I can't be more unlucky.
T.T
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Recent Updates
For the past few weeks, I can clearly feel that my energy level is unable to keep up with my work.
2 weeks ago, a few dramas happened for a few days until I realise that I really need a rest, or else the dramas will just continue for who-know-how-long!
Recently I have been dragging myself to do work. Although the body and heart tells me that I don't "feel" like doing it, but what must be done have to be done.
At the beginning of the week, I always set myself a target of what needs to be done within the week, and for the past 2-3 weeks I have never finished them.
Bodhi Nite preparation is becoming more and more intensed recently, apart from involving in catering department, I am in the sketch department taking a minor role (5 minutes action) as well. Although it's a very minor role, it means that I have to attend practices from time to time.
It is fun to be with UNIBUDS friends, but a lot of times it means that I'm actually diverting my attention and energy. My supervisor advised me to spend 10-11 hours EVERYDAY just to work on my project. Have I done so? I don't think I have. I should set myself a time limit start from next week. 10 hours min a day should be spent on my project.
It's all about juggling between time, and spend your energy on the right place.
3 months to go!
Saturday, July 30, 2011
1/2 Century Concert
昨天跟Den Neil一起去Bondi Junction，聊起了他昨晚要去的梁静茹演唱会。对于梁的歌一直有好感，只是演唱会是在星期五晚上，不想因为要去看演唱会而把佛学班的责任推给别人，只好跟自己说“下次吧！”
巴士上跟DN谈到说我最想去的演唱会是“歌神”张学友的演唱会。他上一次来悉尼是2007年，刚好是我上大学的前一年，因此而错过了。
张学友的歌当然是从小听到大的，对他也一直都非常欣赏。真正学会珍惜他是我来到澳洲的第二、三年才开始的。当时在想为什么他的唱片会是台湾有史以来卖得最好的，为什么人家会叫他“歌神”，才开始很用心听他的歌。
听着听着，不自觉的就成为他的歌迷之一，他饱和的低音，充满感情的高音，以及完美的技巧与感情是大多歌手无法比拟的。当然这，是需要“用心”听才会发现的。在我报告了“诸多”无法去张学友演唱会的“遗憾”后，当天晚上DN在看完梁静茹演唱会后 MMS 来了这张照片：
我一看到照片就一反常态的尖叫（请相信我，我不常尖叫=P)，还因此惹来了玮莹的侧目，抱歉，真的太兴奋了！
梁静茹的错过了，张学友的绝对不容错过！！
人生有时候就是这样，你以为错过了很好的，没想到更好的就在后头等着。
“想和你再去吹吹风，虽然已是不同时空，还是可以迎着风随意说说心里的梦...”
Saturday, July 23, 2011
亲情
刚才问了一位即将回到马来西亚去的朋友。
他在澳洲也有八年了。
问到他回去的原因，他说是因为家人。
他说每次回家，看到父母亲的白头发每一年都在慢慢增加。
看到家人一起旅行的照片，他会问自己为什么不在照片里面？
看到这个世界这么乱，这么多灾难，加强了想回去的信念。
短短几句话，我学到了些东西。
Friday, July 22, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Honours Year is coming to an end
1 month to practice thesis submission,
1 and a half months to practice thesis interview.
1 and a half months to submit samples for pyrosequencing.
2 and a half months to the end of my experiment and giving final seminar.
3 and a half months to the submission of final thesis.
4 months to final oral interview.
SCARY
Saturday, July 9, 2011
One Day
The first thing to do to defeat a difficulty, is to admit that there's a challenge ahead of you.
那是道淚水 折射以後變成的彩虹
投映在 我們曾仰望的那片天空
當星光 點點落在我已久違的笑容
If you choose to run away from it and to be in denial, you will never solve the problem.
Glad that I have seen it! Time to move on.
投映在 我們曾仰望的那片天空
當星光 點點落在我已久違的笑容
那麼 過去 無所謂了
Friday, July 8, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
孤鹰
人其实很奇怪。
很多时候，一个人的优点、让你欣赏的地方，却在无限放大后成为你最不喜欢的一点。
我想，这是因为人都是没有完美的吧！
很多时候一样的个性，却会在不同的情况、因缘条件下，形成不同的应对方式，造成不同的结果。也许这就是所谓的“一体两面”。
突然发觉，当初接受不了的东西现在还是很难去接受！
能够自由自在的，孤单一点也无妨。
现在的我真的很喜欢“自由”。
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
日复一日
早上六点多起床，八点到大学。
在实验室忙个不停，忙到六点。休息时间也只是午餐的那半个小时。
黄昏，戴着个耳机走小路回家。
疲劳的身体，也容易被歌声给感动。
回家，随便煮个晚餐，看看无聊的电视节目，笑一笑，然后睡觉。
我已经习惯这样的日子了。
尤其是这几天，回到家来总是一个人，空荡荡的，却也挺享受。
享受没有人的日子，享受倾听内心的声音。
享受睡觉前，总要听听杨宗纬的歌声。
问我为什么那么喜欢他？那是因为他的声音已经是我枯燥生活中唯一陪伴的真心朋友了。
“如果我把我的手放在背后，愿不愿意牵着一起走？”
Monday, June 20, 2011
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
除了感恩，还是感恩
平静的心，再度激起或大或小的涟漪..
难道这不就是我要的结局吗？怎么会有一种若有所失的感觉？
感谢你在最后时刻说的话，这是你第一次感动了我。
从今天起，我会诚恳的让你不受伤害。
But for now, I can only wish you well and happy.
Thank you.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Super 8
It is one of the best movies I have ever seen, certainly the best I have watched recently.
It is funny, scary at times, and touching. The funny scenes make you laugh loudly yet the touching scenes are so touching that it makes me start missing my family immediately.
After the movie when on the way home, a lot of thoughts going through my mind. Sometimes when things are getting busy, I tend to ignore many things in my life and forget to be thankful. It makes me realise that how important family is to everyone, because of the kids in the movie and how true their love is for their loved ones. I didn't regret to "randomly" selected this movie, it is way better than what I would have imagined.
If you love watching movies, you will love it.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Life as a Young Scientist
Woke up at 5.30am today, prepared myself, departed at 6.40am.
Reached my lab at 7am today, done some sampling, and headed to my office to prepare presentation slides for the lab meeting next Monday.
I will be as busy as this for the rest of the year till I hand in my thesis and finished my thesis presentation.
Seems crazy, but I am enjoying it. =)
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Wake Up call
I will never forget this date- 20/4/2011.
It is a wake up call, and I am glad that I met Mike today.
Time to use my brain more and work harder!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Frustrations
Saw a lot of frustrations in me while doing Buddhist Exhibition work.
After tonight which will be a long night, it's time to give full focus to my research again.
Till the end of the year.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Struggles
I don't know how much I still can take all this and I know that if I am not letting out my frustrations I am gonna explode sometime soon!
Research work, BE work, EDT work are all pilling up and yet it's so hard to find someone to share my workload even it's just setting up a dhamma talk!! How selfish people can be!
I am just gotta suck it all up and focus on my task.
May Buddha bless me with more patience, perseverance, and diligence to overcome all these obstacles. I am not gonna let the stress and unhappiness from stopping me to contribute to the others.
I will march on!
Breath in... Breath out... Relax...
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Regrets
If a person gives up halfway..
I am sure there will be regrets.
I am sure that there are a lot many other things that you will give up when you face other difficulties in the future.. Because you gave up on this.
I am sure that you don't feel good as you create sufferings for the others..
Have you thought about it carefully?
I just don't want you to regret.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Some Updates
Life has been good to me so far..
In case you don't know, I am in my honours year which is my final year. How time flies! It feels like I have just entered uni yesterday.
My Honours supervisor is Dr. Mike Manefield, the deputy director of the CMB (Centre for Marine Bioinnovation), which is the largest and richest lab in my school.
His team is a big one, with 3 postdocs and 5 PhD students working for him. You can have a look at this website- http://www.manefield.com/Home/team-members
I have been impressed by how efficient and organised he is. From the weekly lab meeting to the CMB seminars, I am really impressed.
I will be working in a PC2 lab which is a slightly more dangerous lab than a normal lab, but it should be quite safe. So far we have finalised the topic that I am doing, and I will be starting my research and getting familiarise with the lab next week! At the same time, I am gonna prepare for my research plan which is due next week and literature review. *tough times ahead!*
Because of how disciplined and how efficient he is, I can't help but to force myself to work harder to meet his expectations. I guess that's also part of my motivation to do well in this very important year.
From next week onwards, I am gonna spend 45-50 hours a week to work on my experiment, which means that I will contribute majority of my time on research. Feel bad that I won't be involved in UNIBUDS as much but I guess it's time for the "younger generation" of UNIBUDS to contribute, which is a very good thing!
All in all, I am happy that I have an aim and something to look forward to. I have some ambition in myself and I am gonna strive hard to fulfill it!
More updates on the way.. Stay tuned!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
归心
雨，无情地打了下来。
躺在沙发上想要睡觉的我，电视还开着萧敬腾的演唱会。
明天就要回去了，却还没有开始动手收拾。
是懒惰，还是不舍？
二者都有吧，但是比较多的肯定是不舍。
也许，是不想面对现实。
下一次回来不知道是什么时候了。
归心，指的不是想要回去澳洲的心。
而是想要回来槟城的心。
上个礼拜我说过，我还没离开家就已经思乡了。
这句话说得不假。
你们都好好照顾自己吧。
第四年了，第一次觉得那么不舍。
也许是经过了很多的起起落落，才更明白家人在我心目中的地位吧。
完成了我的目标，我们又会重逢了。
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
给未来的自己
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害
一觉醒来还有期待
我不放弃爱的勇气
我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦给未来的自己
不管怎样 怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样？
至少我很坚强 我很坦荡
与所有在爱情被伤过的人，以及有梦的人共勉之。
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
学习
以前读过很多人以不同的方法来形容人生。
对我来说，人生就是一场无止境的学习。
终点，就是成为一个真正在任何情况下都能满足，快乐的人。
过去的事，就像泼出去的水。泼出去的一桶水，你是怎样都装不回原来完整的那一整桶。
你能做的，只是打开水龙头把那个桶再度填满而已。
所以我们人所作的每一件事，还是要经过深思熟率才行！
还有很多需要学习的东西
就让2011成为一个转折点吧！
Friday, January 14, 2011
突然好想你
最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著 不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今 终于让自己属于 我自己
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下 最痛的纪念品
我们 那么甜那么美那么相信
那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去
最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著 不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息
最怕此生 已经决心自己过 没有你
却又突然 听到你的消息
Monday, January 10, 2011
那些女孩教我的事
第一行诗的狂妄 第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇 你的倔强
第一颗流星飞刹 第一个天真愿望
第一份诺言给你的慌张
你教我爱的徜徉 你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘 伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念反复增长
只想问
想念的
想念的
想念的你
怎么样
三年前听到这首歌不是很懂它的意思。现在听回来，竟然能很深刻的体会它的含义。
三年过去了，也多多少少长大了一点吧。
Friday, January 7, 2011
Back
Decided to be back blogging here since there's no where I can express my feeling, and I just feel like writing something..
Reached home and the house is so quiet.. I guess my 2 house mates are already sleeping.
Was hoping that I could actually talk to someone, so I switched on my computer and go online, but there's still no one I can talk to..
I really hope that you are with me now, I really do.
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