善男信女

不远处有一片土
站了一棵枯的树
仔细看那树枝的弧度 像在哭
枯树前杂沓脚步
收集安心的孤独
为什麼眼前荒芜
是天下有情人的归宿
那片山谷入口处清楚刻著伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了其实可以忘了爱的省悟
别哭
那片乐土是不是至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什麼都不再记住
祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女别太辛苦

枯树前杂沓脚步
刻著心碎的控诉
读完别人的感触
却又义无反顾的投入
那片山谷入口处清楚刻著伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了其实可以忘了爱的省悟
别哭
那片乐土是不是至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什麼都不再记住
祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女都别再继续守护
谁的衣服 还穿著只为遮掩苍白的皮肤
谁的脚步 有几个真的可以远离爱远离糊涂
别哭 谁的省悟~~啊~从此入土
祝福什麼都不再记住
祝福很快会找到幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女别再辛苦

呐喊

很想去一个没有人的地方，可以让我尽情呐喊，把所有负面的情绪都释放出来。

只想一生跟你走

共你有过最美的邂逅
共你有过一些风雨忧愁
共你醉过痛过的最后
但我发觉想你不能没有

在你每次抱怨的眼里
像我永远不懂给你温柔
别再诉说我俩早已分手
像你教我伤心依然未够

但你没带走 梦里的所有
让你走 为何让你看不透

但求你未淡忘 往日旧情
我愿默然 带着泪流
很想一生跟你走
就算天边海角 多少改变
一生只有 风中追究
不想孤单的逗留

但求你未谈忘 往日旧情
我愿默然 带着泪流
很想一生跟你走
在我心中的你 思海的你
今生不可不能没有

Expectations

I know I shouldn't have too much expectations. Because expectations is always the thing that brings us suffering when the thing u hope doesn't come.

I don't want my day to be screwed just because of this. Time to reflect what's important in my life before I get carried away by my emotions =)

ADD OIL AHHH~~!!!!!!

一个普通的星期六

今天，Joanna和Chiam就要回去马来西亚了。真的有点舍不得，因为他们对我其实都很好。昨晚，因为要跟他们吃晚餐，所以翘了一堂英文佛学班。坐着Chiam的车去Kingsford，感觉好像回到了年头。当时的我虽然比较孤单些，但内心却是很充实的。一部分也是因为他们给了我一种“家”的感觉，虽然说只是很简单的关心，可是也给了我许多温暖。虽然说后来Joanne回去了（本来是几个星期而已，可是因为Swine flu而变成了几个月），这种感觉也消失了，可是我始终记得年头时那给了我力量的温暖。

昨晚，本来十二点就要睡了，结果边读书边听歌到三点才睡。今早醒来有点昏沉，希望过了一阵子就会没事吧。其实有时候听享受晚上一个人的时间，可以做自己想要做的事，听爱听的歌。杨宗纬的歌声又陪了我度过了一夜。他的歌，真的能够唱进人的心里。。

今天慧命社会有一个很重要的活动，可是我的心思完全不在那边，好像只是一次很普通的大会而已。是好事还是坏事？

今天和明天会很忙！要把握时间了！

Dust dust go away...

I never liked to complain about the weather, because I think it's the silliest thing in the world. To complain about something that you can't control and it's useless to complain at all.

But this morning I am a bit grumpy about the weather, because the DUST STORM dirtied my room which I just cleaned few days ago! Now I need to vacuum my room all over again and wipe my desk and cupboards which I did few days ago......

The worse thing is I have to wash all my clothes which are hanging outside all over again. And my washing powder just finished! Wahh this is quite frustrating... And I think I am allergy to dust, how am I gonna go out today since it's so dusty out there?

Dust dust go away......

What a game!

Rooney's goal
Celebrate with Anderson
Fletcher scored 2 goals. Wonderful performance by him again
Owen's killer! He still has it!
Owen celebrates
Rooney congratulates Owen
You gotta love this

Honestly speaking I don't watch football as much as I used to. It's partly because of my busy life, and also the time zone here isn't really good for me to watch football regularly considering I have to wake up like 3am in the morning and sleep back at 5am while having uni at 9 in the morning. Lol.

However, I decided to watch the match between Manchester United and Manchester City tonight, because the match starts at 10.30 Sydney time and I am really tired of doing my assignment. Here's the progress of this EXCITING match.

2nd minute, Wayne Rooney scores. 1-0 to United. 16th minute, old United boy Tevez caught Foster's mistake and assisted Barry, 1-1. I thought.. "Damn, Man City improved so much and this match is gonna be a tough one." The rest of the match proved me right. The first half of the match ended 1-1.

2nd half of the match, homegrown United boy Fletched scored a good header. 2-1! I felt more relieved but there are more twists and turns. Bellamy scored a world class long range shot and it's 2-2! My heartbeat goes faster because the match is really good. Ryan Giggs plays like he's 25 although he is turning 36 soon, incredible. Valencia coming on gave Manutd more attacking options and they are playing much better before he came on. Man Utd kept attacking and finally the effort pays off, Fletcher scored his second header in the 80th minute, 3-2! I was very happy but worried as well as Man City have been able to equalized for twice already. And once again..... They proved me right =.=... Silly mistake by Ferdinand and Bellamy scored his 2nd goal... 3-3.

I was almost hopeless and thinking of closing the window. But then considering the match is only few minutes away to the end, I stayed and continue watching. LUCKILY I din give up, because MICHAEL OWEN scored the winner in the 95th minute after receiving a brilliant pass from Ryan Giggs, who has 3 assists in this game. The Welsh Wizard just can't get old. What a match!! I found my passion again =)

Go Ryan Giggs! Go Michael Owen! Go Man Utd!! I will support you through all the ups and downs.. Even when there are downside I believe that you will be able to stand up again eventually.

I really hope that Owen will be recalled to the England squad for the World Cup next year. Capello, are u watching this match?










Now back to reality... Assignment tmr morning =p

好朋友，就要做一辈子的

刚才做assignment做得有点累了，想睡个午觉，于是把msn set到away，打算躺上床小睡片刻。突然间听到了MSN有人nudge的声音，本来想起来看看就把它给关起来了，因为实在是太累了。没想到nudge我的人偏偏是你，所以我就马上打起精神来跟你聊聊。

也许这些话没有跟你说过，我其实很感激你的存在。从那么小就认识到现在，可以说我们一直是最好的朋友。从小到大，你帮助我度过了那么多个难关。我不否认自己很聪明，可是我觉得你是比我还聪明的一个人。我一直都是那个比较胆小、内向、没信心、多愁善感的人。你一直都是那个比较聪明、比较枪眼、自信心强的人。当我有什么问题，你都能一直开导我，而且你也一直都很了解我心里在想的是什么。

虽然我们的性格很不同，很多时候对于不同事情的看法也很不同，也有过一些争执，但最终能让我们的友谊始终那么坚固的，应该是从小就培养起来的深厚友谊和将我们共同拉在一起的--佛教吧。我们一起短期出家过，参加过几个佛学营、佛学班，和不同的共修法会等等，都是那座桥梁中重要的因素。

虽然说现在我们都已离开了家乡，往世界不同的地方去寻找我们的梦想。但是我希望你记得，当初你飞往美国时我在卡片中给你的叮咛，还有送你那本《妙云选译》的用意。也许看起来都是很无意的举动，但是我说过的每一句话，做过的每一个小事都是发自内心的。希望你能记得当初我们一起短期出家，讨论佛法时的那种感觉。希望你记得，当初我们跟从荣在我家彻夜“辩论”，只为了维护佛法的那种心情。希望你记得，你的开宝师父，和一些其他师父们对你的叮咛。希望你能记得，你的阿姨和婆婆，她们辛苦了半辈子把你养大，她们对你的爱以及期盼。希望你记得，也许是不久前的那个你，还怀着的梦想，和那颗最珍贵的赤子之心。这世界上的诱惑何其多，只要我们保持着当初的那颗心，凭你那敏锐的头脑和超强的观察力，我相信你一定是大有所为的。可能我的话对很多人来说是非常的不中听，可是请你相信，我所说的一切都是发自内心的。

写完这些，很累了。依我现在的状况，今晚和exco们的晚餐我是很难尽兴了，而且还有一大堆assignments要做。但是我相信，跟你小谈片刻却是非常值得的。因为随着时间的流逝，我们都会为了学业、为了生活而越来越忙。

好朋友，就要做一辈子的。

转折点？

终于，一切都结束了。。

其实对于结果很惊讶。虽然不是没有想过，但是总觉得还不是时间，还没有能力。但是由于如今的形势，不得不答应。

明白很多人会怎么看，完全不怪他们因为他们都是正确的。应该要学会谦虚一些，接受别人的意见才行。其实不是很喜欢这种情形，因为有“蜀中无大将，廖化作先锋”的感觉。但是我发誓，一定要让那些对我有怀疑，或者是看小我的人在一年后对我说：“你干得不错”，这样就够了。

也许这将是我人生中很重要的一个过程，会加油的！

Relieved

Great great day for me!

I am glad that we are able to speak out and talk about it. It always feel good to say something out of your heart when it is there for a long time. There may be arguments because people have different views and opinions with the difference in their personality, but as long as we understand why we are discussing about it then everything will be fine.

At least I feel relieve now although the result might not be what I want.

Thanks a lot.. =)

挣扎后的春天？

心中还在不停地挣扎。。

很想跟自己讲：“祥缘，够了就是够了！”

想说话的人，你在哪里?

只希望经历过这次的挣扎，结果会是圆满、对大家都好的吧！=）

Hunter Valley Trip

Just back from a relaxing trip at Hunter Valley!

The trip was good, managed to relax my mind and get some good rest. Although I looked quiet at most of the times, but I was actually enjoying myself. We went to do some wine tasting, cheese tasting, chocolate tasting.. Etc etc. The scenery is quite beautiful as well. The most of them went to do horse-riding, but I decided that it is too torturing for the horse so I didn't join them. But glad that I am able to be at the entrance of the garden with the beautiful lake. It's only during this trip I realised that I prefer lake than sea a lot. I guess it's because lake is more peaceful than sea and lake doesn't have the irritating sand. Haha.

A lot of thoughts in my mind during the trip, but I am glad that I have the chance to see the truth and to be able to think more before I made a move. Tomorrow, I will go to Hwa Tsang Monastery to meet Shifu. Hopefully the outcome will be good and I will know what I want. I am just too pressured at the moment thinking of what's gonna happen next. Guess what I need now is a good adviser and counselor who can show me the way.

A very small incident happened just now. When were walking back to the car at Lake Macquarie, Kathy asked me "why u look so 心事重重"... I said "still ok la..". Then she said "means still manageable la". Haha so cute! Thanks for your concern anyway, appreciate it.

人质

最近。。。深深地爱上了杨宗纬的“人质”。

没听过的人，快去听吧！=)