刚才开会完后，大家一起去 Kingsford附近的一家店去吃晚餐。本来是打算去的，因为想起来今早已经告诉Joanne说我不回来吃晚餐了。
可是当我们要走去吃晚餐时下了一场大雨，全身都被淋湿了。因为不想让我那病了一个星期的身体再受任何“打击”，我决定还是回家洗个澡，不跟他们吃了，结果等了将近半个小时才有巴士。
因为一个人站在那边没事做，就在那边想东想西（很想站在那里观呼吸，可是太累了）。当时我就在想，如果去年的我发生了这种事情，我一定会很愤怒的。我一定会很自私地认为别人怎么都没有体谅到我，看我生病了还让我淋雨。。等等。但是刚才的我并没有这么想。
为什么呢？其实每个人都希望别人能够关心他们吧，我相信没有人是完全不需要别人的关心的。可是一个人怎么能希望别人能够100%把他的心都拿来关心你呢？也许有人说“找个女朋友就行了啊！”，我并不否认，可是是我决定要过单身的生活的。跟她们做朋友真的很好。至少现在来说，这样真的已经很够了。既然自己的生活方式是自己决定的，那就要对自己负责任。想单身又怕孤单，我相信很多人都有这种矛盾。对我来说，既然选择了矛，再坚固的盾我也要把他给刺破！！要单身又怕孤单，拜托，人不能永远活在矛盾中！
越来越觉得自己的心境有点像个出家人了（行为还天差地远），顺其自然吧！
猪头，现在我觉得孤单时我想最多的就是你你知道吗？？
谢谢刚才我回到家后打电话关心我的几个朋友，我感受到了温暖。=)
5 comments:
waaa..who's pig head?
don't tell me it's..........
(evil grins)
who else can it be?? ngek ngek ngek.. lol ian emo hahaha..
lay hoon: it's for me to know and for u to find out. wahahaha...
eng keat: why u always wanna say that i emo? =.=
go die la u.
say la, u're emo..hng.
emo ch'ng!
wahahahahahahaaa..
Hey, Wow u still can have time updating your blog everyday! I'm having the toughest week ever. Spring break is next week so all the tests, debates and quizzes all waiting in line just to let us enjoy ourselves fully during spring break. I'm impress that u are actually observing ur breath. Indeed the 2 months break in Malaysia u've break through ur old self. Life is moving in such a pace so fast that makes me start pondering and value things which i never put that much weight on. Guess this is the process of aging. LOlz. Anyways about loneliness i'm sure u have more than enough company around u. Loneliness is NOT the weak point for remaining in singlehood. Ur also free from a disease call one-gina.
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